Is there such a thing? If so, I have it. Coupled with the writer’s block that has been crippling the content of this blog, it’s got me feeling pretty worthless. So I’m thinking…maybe I should just get it out.
Without being too specific, because if there is anything I’ve learned from Dooce.com, it’s that one should not be too specific about one’s livelihood on one’s blog, I’m feeling a little burned out. Uninspired. Unsure of my next steps. It’s all-consuming and sort of scary. I know I will figure it out, but in the meantime that nagging “do something” feeling haunts the back of my mind, and it’s distracting. It’s just that I don’t know what I want to do. So instead of reading and running and cooking and doing things around the house, you know, all the things I normally blog about, I’ve just been sitting around biting my nails and thinking. And that is not a good time. So unless you guys want to read about my latest hangnail, it’s radio silence or random babble without segue. Le sigh.
After two epic painting fails, I was near tears and thisclose to throwing my palette and brushes across the room when I remembered *NEW CARPET THAT WE’RE STILL PAYING FOR* and I relaxed and ate a piece of fudge. Chocolate peanut butter fudge. Then I got my Jackson Pollock on.

Sorry for the lousy photo. The paint is still wet, as I imagine it will be for another couple of days, since it’s like an inch thick. I learned the term for that today, by the way, it is “impasto.” If they ever use that as a Jeopardy clue, you’re welcome. This is really nowhere near as crazy as a Jackson Pollock, but I squirted paint on a canvas and just let it do what it wanted so that’s close enough for me. On the other hand, I think my paints must be going bad because they never used to be that watery. So there’s that. It reminds me of melted ice cream.
Has anyone else read the Dexter books? I’m unimpressed. I wonder if I would have liked them more if I had read them before watching every episode of the show (twice).
I have an excuse to get dressed up for work tomorrow! This NEVER happens. A lot of times when I stop into my parents’ house for some reason or other on my way home, my dad will be like, did you wear that to work? And he’ll point to the hole in the knee of my jeans, and my flip flops, and general lack of professional swagger, and I’m like…yeah, I did. “It’s the culture.” BUT! Tomorrow, I will be fancy. I am 99.9% excited about this. The missing percentage point is because I will be wearing heels and I still have blisters from the last time I wore heels.
I feel compelled to state that so far I am not impressed with this Fantasy Football. Nevermind the fact that I keep losing. People keep rejecting my trades. That is not very neighborly!
My friends who live in the city complain about roaches, and I know that must be the pits. Crickets are no big deal by comparison, they say. And I know cricket chirping is supposedly reminiscent of summer nights camping in a tent or eating s’mores or whatever, but I did not invite them into my basement. No one was like, oh come in from the cold little crickets, but here they are anyway, confusing Max and making so much noise I can’t even think about my future or what my next random blog paragraph will be.